Why do I do this? Why can’t I just keep my feelings under control? It is bad enough that I take my frustration out on myself…why do I have to hurt other people and take my pain out on them? And I couldn’t even open up to the only two people who actually genuinely cared about why I was upset. When everyone was worried about themselves…as usual…and I was trying to find a solution…only two people cared about what I had to say..and I couldn’t even get out a sentence of truth…all I could say was “I am fine.”

When I was little people would always say to love yourself. I always thought that was so easy to do. But I learned years ago that it is one of the hardest things to do.